Ink, gouache and paper on board
28″ x 40″
The making of Repetition gave me an opportunity to demonstrate visually my lifelong struggle to overcome the compulsion to binge. To get up every day and continually fail is mentally and physically debilitating. I envisioned this as a replicated inner spiral and then calculated the number of days that I had been engaged in that spiral since the age of eight when my addiction began. I am 48. The process of repetitive ink drawing proved to be a time consuming but meditative and helpful experience. It gratified me that documentation of such a profoundly negative behaviour in this way led in some way to a more positive outcome.